It’s happened again.

The first time was Summer of 06, at my 20th high school reunion. Most of the people I had hoped I might see, weren’t there. I did see Jenny, which alone made it worth showing up, but to my surprise there was also my old buddy Dan. Now, you have to understand that in high school, Dan and I did things like write notes to each other in secret codes based on the Greek alphabet. Geeky, fun stuff like that. We were in Drama Club together. Dan was kinda thin, had a shaggy blond mop of hair, was cute in a geeky-boy way. He made me laugh; he was friendly and safe.

Suddenly here he was at our reunion, tall, confident, in a well-tailored suit, and he’s telling me about being CEO of the company he recently founded, a company which is researching means of fertilizing the oceans with iron in order to sequester atmospheric carbon dioxide, thereby reducing effects of global warming.

Whoaaaaa.

Then, of course, the inevitable question: “So, what are you doing now?”

Ummmm, I, teach knitting?!?

This week, Round Two. I hear from another old high school friend, an old gamer friend whom I remember playing Assassin in the hallways (sneaking a disc gun into school) and online role-playing games before there was even an online. We also passed notes and took awkward turns having ill-timed crushes on each other. We learned kung fu together, though he was always far above me in skill. Now he’s a security professional – and I don’t mean the skanky guy in uniform at the mall, either. He’s been head of security for a major luxury hotel chain, worked with the Secret Service, the FBI…Here’s an excerpt from the email he wrote me: 

I’ve met 4 (past, sitting and future) Presidents and uncounted other personalities. Some of them quite nice. Traveled to the caribbean and Europe (would have gotten to say Asia, if I’d just made it across the bridge in Istanbul)…So, what do you do, these days??

What do I do? I sing in the choirs at church. I knit, with friends. I work part-time chatting up people with cancer. I raise two girls.

I have met no Presidents. I have founded no companies. I am researching no means of counteracting global warming. I have kept no one’s life safe from terrorists. 

I have helped uncounted women breastfeed their babies. I have encouraged people and kept them company through dark times of their lives. I have caused people to meet each other and form community. I strive to be a positive influence on those I encounter; that is, to be a force for good and not for ill. To uplift and not to pull down.

In Orson Scott Card’s Red Prophet, the boy Alvin encounters Becca, an incarnation of one of the Fates.

Alvin tried to imagine Becca’s mother, and her grandmother, and the women before that, all in a line, he tried to imagine how many there’d be, all of them working their spinning wheels, winding out threads from the spindle, yarn all raw and white, which would just go somewhere, go on and disappear somewhere until it broke. Or maybe when it broke they held the whole thing, a whole human life, in their hands, and then tossed it upward until it was caught by a passing wind, and then dropped down and got snagged up in somebody’s loom. A life afloat on the wind, then caught and woven into the cloth of humanity; born at some arbitrary time, then struggling to find its way into the fabric, weaving into the strength of it.

And as he imagined this, he also imagined that he understood something about that fabric. About the way it grew stronger the more tightly woven in each thread became. The ones that skipped about over the top of the cloth, dipping into the weft only now and then, they added little to the strength, though much to the color, of the cloth. While some whose color hardly showed at all, they were deeply wound among the threads, holding all together. There was a goodness in those hidden binding threads. Forever from then on, Alvin would see some quiet man or woman, little noticed and hardly thought of by others, who nevertheless went a-weaving through the life of village, town, or city, binding up, holding on, and Alvin would silently salute such folk, and do them homage in his heart, because he knew how their lives kept the cloth strong, the weave tight.

So I re-think my life. It’s not a flashy life. It’s not an impressive resume life.

It is the life which God has granted me. It is a good life. I am grateful for it; I hope it is a life which strengthens the cloth of my community.

Having just this week cast on for a new sweater, it is clearly now time…

to cast on for a new sweater.

I can’t wait!

Please indulge me while I introduce my new favorite sweater!

lopi

Isn’t it gorgeous? Doesn’t it look handsome on him? Purrrr.

It’s my favorite sweater for three reasons:

1. It took twelve days to knit. Twelve. Cast on Christmas Day; completed on Epiphany. A hubby sweater in twelve days! Woot! His other sweater took three and a half months. (‘course, I was designing it at the time. This one is straight out of the book.)

2. He wears it. Always a huge plus.

3. Did I mention how quick it was??

Lamb’s Pride Bulky, substituting for the Lopi called for by the pattern. Turns out Lamb’s Pride is a lot softer than Lopi; it has a silkiness while the Lopi is more scratchy. I might just have to acquire some for myself…

The day after posting this project on Ravelry, I got a very lovely message from Mary (Knittingally) asking if she could post it on her blog, www.americasknitting.com. Every month she features a different state, and this month is Nebraska, so she was looking for a project with Brown Sheep yarn. Check out her site, it’s a neat approach to featuring different aspects of knitting. Be sure to click on “Illinois” for a listing of yarn shops in our state! Thanks, Mary!

I’m also pleased to announce that after about three solid days of obsessing over pattern details, stitch textures, gauge, and the blooming effects of blocking Tahki Donegal Tweed, my next project is now on the needles. It’s The Wrapper, from Cheryl Oberle’s new Knitted Jackets. Miles of k2p2 ribbing…just the ticket for next weekend’s Women’s Retreat. I always need a project to keep my hands and wandering mind occupied so I can sit through the speaker sessions. (Especially since I suspect this year’s speaker might be on the conservative side, given this year’s planning committee makeup, and the fact that the speaker we chose last year was not so much to their liking. S’ok. I go every year. I go for the woods, for the walk, for the monastic little dorm rooms, for the architecture of the lodge, for the time away, for the breathing space. The speaker is incidental.) (But knitting will still help.)

So it happens that my annual bout with laryngitis has struck twice this year. I thought I’d faced the worst it was going to throw at me a month ago, when the week of my birthday I became extremely hoarse. But no…it was merely making a scouting foray into my life, to test the waters and see what havoc it could wreak. THIS week is the real thing.

At least it’s now and not a few days ago. This past Sunday, our gospel choir sang for two services at church, followed almost immediately by an hour and a half of cantata choir rehearsal (including a couple of short solo lines from yours truly). Monday evening was the final practice for our women’s ensemble, which then sang at both a morning and evening Advent service on Tuesday. Right in the middle of the evening service, I could feel something starting to come on…you know that sensation of “Something’s not right” that can hit at the start of a virus? Yeah. That was it. I made it through the service with no trouble, got home, and got hit with the chills. Woke up Wednesday with, shall we say, impaired vocal skills. Made the mistake of trying to “take it easy” with my voice instead of starting total voice rest right away, and paid for it yesterday and today like a leggy Little Mermaid. I got nothin. Nada. Ninguna de vocality. Total silence. The last straw was my friend Vicki telling me “you know, whispering is even worse than trying to talk.” So now I’m not even whispering. Thanks, Vic.

We could, of course, discuss the possibility that it was because of all of that singing that my voice went. That would be consistent with my experience of losing my voice, umm, virtually every year at this time…right in the midst of cantata and ensemble practice. Not sure what to do about that…really, it’s a small price to pay for what is otherwise one of the high points of the year for me.

As you might imagine, being mute has its entertaining moments, most of which fall into the general category of “how other people react.” My older girl gets unusually chatty; my younger one gets almost as quiet as me. My hubby falls into the trap of only being able to think of things to say that are also questions for me, and thereby confuses himself into polite silence as well. (I think this is much the same phenomenon as the natural thought process when the electricity goes out: “Well, I can’t watch TV, so I’ll just do some work on the compu…No, can’t do that, I’ll turn on the radi…Whoops, better just read; here, I’ll flip on the li…”) Me, I just keep my mouth shut and try to remember the meager bits of sign language that I once knew. Not that what I remember is a big help, since my family knows even less…but hey, it’s a learning opportunity, right?

Regardless, today being Friday, and being unencumbered by work (seeing as how my work consists entirely of, let’s all say it together, talking to people) I went to Friday Morning Knitting. How glad I was to provide endless varieties of entertainment to Lesley, Nan, and Jodee! It seems I’m funnier when I don’t say anything. I just get to be the backdrop for whatever jokes everyone else thinks of. It was really pretty hilarious. So, here’s what I couldn’t say this morning!

Yes, it’s a Lopi pattern, from Vol. 17, and Lopi yarn. It’s on my Ravelry project page. Took me about eight days to knit. Yes, it’s really warm, but so far, I haven’t written any poems to it.

This thing I’m working on here is the stole for my sister, for her Christmas gift. Yes, it had better be done by Christmas, but it’s almost finished. I’m baffled why the pattern calls for a size freakin’ K crochet hook ’cause that seems really huge to me. If I could talk, I’d be asking Lydia and Nan for some serious crochet consultation.

I want your iPod touch. Both of you. I want them both. No…really, just one would do, but I’ll take both of your music collections. And your iPod knitting softwares. That is so on my Christmas list. Thanks for letting me fondle, and sorry Jodee for leaving your music running. Great song though.

Last night’s communication with my husband consisted of me typing in Notepad or in the Google search box on the computer screen, while he just got to SAY WHATEVER HE WANTED. He even brought me a BELL TO RING to get his attention. Hmm, maybe I should have brought my laptop to knitting…or maybe that’s just another justification for the iPod!

So there it is. Tea and honey are my dear friends this week; I never want to be far from them. I’m putting all my wool accessories to practical use, mostly wrapping them about my neck, chest, and head. It was great to SEE y’all this morning, and those who weren’t there, I missed you, stay in touch…but remember: Email me, don’t call!

I don’t consider myself a worrier. I don’t worry mentally. I mean, I don’t fret and think about things that could go wrong. I don’t imagine horrific things. I don’t make lists of possible outcomes.

Apparently, though, I worry physically. I carry my preoccupation and fears like a backpack, stooping my shoulders and slowing my step. In yoga today, I had a hard time opening my “heart” and reaching up…it was so much easier to stay bent over, to not stretch straight but rather to curve inward and keep my heart protected. I wasn’t prepared to be open. When I worry, I don’t make eye contact; I can’t take in anything more than I’m carrying already.

I worry behaviorally. I stop returning phone calls. I don’t cook. I don’t intend to cook until Wednesday, until after her surgery is over and we can start thinking normally again. I eat, though…chocolate and ice cream and anything else anyone suggests. I don’t say no to her requests. I knit…I would knit for her, if there were something she wanted. I would knit a prayer for her. I think of knitting something for her surgeon’s hands. Mitts to warm them, protect them, shelter those hands against these cold windy days. A prayer for her surgeon’s hands.

I send my younger daughter to friends’ houses, arranging for her to get some non-stressed family time even if it’s with other families. I rely on my mom friends to mother her for a few days. I am grateful for this extended family, our community of friends, which embraces her without hesitation.

All will be well. All will be well. It’s not a major surgery, just a bone fragment which needs to be returned to its proper place. She’ll be home within hours. She’ll be back at school by Thursday.

In the meantime, though…don’t expect me to cook.

Edited to add: All went well and she’s back home safe and sound. Today’s plan consists of Vicodin and Vistoril every four hours (’round the clock…midnight last night was not a pretty scene); pretzels, chicken noodle soup and ice cream; and a Star Wars Movie Marathon. I don’t think school tomorrow is a likely option, but maybe a half-day on Friday. Thanks to all for your good wishes.

A few memories from riding the Hilly Hundred this weekend.

A thought on climbing the Three Sisters (beginning with Sister number one, the Twisted Sister):

I might walk this.

For the record, I didn’t. I didn’t walk any of it. I rode it all. Even Mt. Tabor.

On climbing the third Sister, the Sisty Ugler:

I might throw up.

Didn’t do that either. Thank goodness.

On flying down any of the great sweeping downhills through the woods:

If I spill now, I’m going straight to the ER a bloody mess.

Fortunately, this was yet another thing I didn’t do. My bike computer registered my maximum downhill speed at 35 mph, achieved on that amazing downhill right before Turkey Track Hill on the second day. One might think that speeds like this would yield a high average speed overall, but you have to balance them out with the 2mph uphills of Mt. Tabor and Water Tower Hill and the Sisters…and all the other named and unnamed hills of the two days.

A thought about thirty miles into Day One:

I might never be able to have sex again.

THAT particular thought led to this purchase at the end of the first day of riding, which singlehandedly allowed there to even BE a second day of riding:

Girlfriends, hear me now. If you ride a bike, go QUICKLY (I won’t say run, ’cause you might not be able to) to your nearest bike parts dealer and get yourself and your soft parts a seat WITH A HOLE IN IT. Preserve your marriage! Preserve your future childbearing potential! Preserve your God-given ability to pee!! Love yourself, love your partner, love your holey bike seat. Anatomically protective bike technology is your best friend on a long day’s ride.

‘Nuf said ’bout that.

I did also get myself both the souvenir Hilly Hundred 2008 T-shirt, and the souvenir socks. I think if one rides such a massive bragging rights ride as this, one is entitled to a certain amount of swag. I passed by the Pink Floyd bike jersey…reluctantly.

One of the entertaining aspects of the big organized rides like this, is the things you overhear as folks ride past you. I’ll share a few favorite quotes…

Me (to the two guys riding slightly behind me): HOLE.

Guy #1 (to his buddy): HOLE!

Guy #2: SH*T! (*bang*)

The singing peloton, climbing a fairly steep hill past me, to the tune of “I’m All Out of Love”: “I’m all out of gears/My cadence is TOO slow/My knees are now shot…”

And the woman who had just begun to believe she had crested the top of the climb, upon seeing that it turned a corner, increased significantly in incline, and was in fact the dreaded Cemetary Hill: “Oh Crap.”

And finally, a few words of advice for future Hilly riders.

Don’t miss breakfast. (Although you may have the luck of encountering coffee and doughnuts on the route.)

Get up with the stars and frost. (See: Don’t miss breakfast, above.) It helps to go to bed about 8:30 the night before. It was, in fact, surprisingly easy to go to bed at 8:30 after riding fifty miles of hills.

The shower trucks are, again surprisingly, nicer than the in-school showers and not to be scoffed at. Once again we experienced that pure joy which is a hot shower at the end of a long tiring day.

Wool (see? it’s a knitting post; I said “wool”) is a fabulous fabric for cycling. I had the fortune of picking up a long-sleeved wool bike jersey on clearance a couple of weeks ago, and it was perfect for the combination of sweaty climbing plus high-speed windy downhills. It breathes, it was never clammy or clingy, it wick’d and dried out quickly, and it was just the right layer for variable warmth. Plus, it let me give a heartfelt greeting to the sheep we passed…and it allowed me to still feel like a knitter even when I was so tired I could barely hold needles.

Which still holds today, in fact. I moaned and whimpered my way through yoga class, and then came home and crashed on the couch with my sleeping bag pulled over me. My knitting was by my side but I just couldn’t gather myself enough to pull it out. Maybe 8:30 isn’t too early for bed even tonight. My legs barely want to stand…but the hills are still swooping past me in my mind.

skipping quickly over here after reading a thread from the Seasons of the Stash group on Ravelry…I joined this group back when it was Summer of the Stash, and I (along with other group members) were entertaining goals of knitting solely from stash and not buying new yarn.

Right. Then came the Folk and Fiber Art Fair…and after that was Stitches Midwest…and Yarn Con…and it’s possible I may have fallen off of that wagon just a tiny bit.

So the group has changed its name to Seasons of the Stash, presumably to give a fresh start to other junkies like me. I’m not sure I’m really going to try to re-up, though…it turns out I really like buying yarn.

Regardless, folks are now posting their autumn knitting goals, and I thought it might be fun to give that part a shot. So here goes…Jen’s Autumn Knitting Foretold:

The cover sweater from Custom Knits, worked in Peace Fleece to make a thick warm wooly yummy waisty yoked sweater-I-can-wear-every-day.

That stunningly gorgeous beaded lace shawl from the new Vogue Knitting Holiday issue. It will take me for-freakin’-ever but I don’t care I must knit it NOW. 1400 beads. No, really…1,400 beads. One THOUSAND four HUNDRED beads. That’s TEN little vials of 150 tiny sparkly beads of glinty goodness and I don’t care how much I will regret it later I must knit it NOW.

I must knit my father-in-law a pair of knucks for Christmas, ’cause I meant to knit them for his birthday in June. I’ve had the yarn for about eight months now and it will take me two days to knit them. I’ll probably start them December 22nd. *sigh*

Sara’s stole. Must be done by Christmas.

What else? Hmmm, well, Nancy Bush’s book on Estonian Lace is due out the first week of November, and that will have all kinds of things in it I’ll feel compelled to knit. Laurel knows how much I’ve been anticipating this ’cause I think I’ve mentioned it about every five minutes for the past six months.

If I can get my hands on some Silky Wool, I’ll knit that short-sleeved pullover from Custom Knits.

I’m sure there’s more, but all this talking is making me hungry for yarn, so excuse me, I must see if I can get to the point in the shawl where I get to start fiddling with beads and dropping them and trying to stay on place with the chart while wielding a teeny tiny crochet hook and a vial full of 150 beads. And getting the sweater past the mindless easy part to the part where I have to manage sleeve decreases and multiple colors.

See, I told you next post would have knitting…

My girls and I went on a great and grand adventure over the weekend, bicycling the Apple Cider Century in Michigan. Thirty-five glorious miles through beautiful wooded roads, watching the colors turn in the leaves, seeing the fields ready for harvest roll out in waves just the way they don’t in Illinois. A lovely, undulating change of pace from FlatGlacierLand, and a grand challenge for my girls to meet and conquer. I love doing this ride with them; I love seeing them catch the spirit of the day, feel themselves a part of The Great Cycling Community (there are five thousand riders at this event), embody the rituals of helmet-gloves-calling out “Car Back” and “Car Up” and “On Your Left.” I love seeing my oldest step up to pumping her own tires and installing her own water bottle cage, and my youngest find her place with the other younger riders in our pack. I burst with pride to witness their resolve and determination to finish the ride, even when their energy fades about twenty miles into the day, and they push themselves up those hills by sheer force of will. By the time we roll across the finish line, hit the port-a-potties and then head for the celebratory spaghetti supper, I’d do anything for my girls. But mostly I want to get some chocolate milk into them to raise their blood sugar before they crash beyond recovery, ’cause we still have a tent to pack up back at the campsite.

I love this weekend every year. We’re signed up for ACC 2009 already.

The weekend was marred somewhat by an email I had waiting back at home, from a dear friend, someone important to our family, confessing he had been pulled over for DUI. This has been very much on my mind over the past two days, wrestling with thoughts about responsibility (his and ours), about breaking rules and getting caught (two different things), about forgiveness and making amends and consequences. Here’s part of the response I wrote him:

You are important to us and a part of our family. We have a claim on you, as you do on us. You are in my heart and in my prayers, as well as very much on my mind. Don’t doubt that you have our complete support, now and in the days ahead. We can deal with a long process of rebuilding trust…a short and traumatic goodbye, however, is unthinkable and unacceptable. Stick around. God has an even larger claim on you, and a purpose for you for good.

All that being said…

What the hell were you thinking?? Don’t EVER pull this kind of shit again. I hope your wife read you the riot act. This isn’t what God made you for.

 (deep breath)

We love you no matter what. You are one of us.

As I wrote this email to him, more questions arose within me. What type of claim do we have on each other? Once we enter each other’s lives, there’s an impact. Becoming friends, intertwining our lives, deepens that impact. What sort of responsibility do I have to be a decent person, because you are my friends? The first temptation is to say “none,” but this particular friend’s DUI experience contradicts that impulse. I really do believe God has a different purpose for his life. I’ve seen parts of it. Going out on the road impaired and dangerous, is NOT a good use of his gifts. And if that’s true for his life, then maybe it’s true for mine too. Maybe I need to be more aware of how I spend my time, what I do with my life, because it impacts the people around me. Kids are watching. Friends claim me. Only God knows what purpose my future might hold.

What if God is watching me, the way I watch my girls on the bike adventure? What if God is just as ready to be bursting with pride, over me?

Hi, Mom! Look, no hands! Watch me climb this hill! I think I can do it.

This isn’t how I thought this post would write out. Thoughts are still swimming ’round my brain. Thanks for listening; it’s good to have a place to think.

Maybe next post will have knitting.

Tomorrow, my pastor has asked me to bring my knitting to church. Now, usually, church is the one place I try really hard NOT to knit…I’ll knit just about anywhere else, but not in worship. Or during bible study. Waiting for the kids to get out of bell choir, though, is totally fair game and some of my best knitting time. Tomorrow, though, the sermon at the contemporary service is on something related to lifelong learning (I assume it will lead somewhere such as the lifelong process of learning to be Christian…could be wrong), so they have asked our music director/pianist extraordinairre to talk about learning to play the piano, and they’ve asked me to bring my knitting and talk about becoming a Master Knitter.

Here’s the questions Gail sent me to look over, and I’ll take advantage of having this space to start to sort through my possible responses.

Would you tell us what it means to be a Master Knitter?
It means I belong to the guild that developed the Master Knitter program, and that I have demonstrated my skills and understanding of knitting. There are three levels, each one more complex and demanding. They start with demonstrating competence in the basic skills of knitting, and move through increasingly difficult techniques, as well as research and written work to show my understanding of the history and traditions of knitting. I also was required to design and knit an original sweater and a hat, both using advanced techniques, and to write the patterns for these designs.
What was the first thing you ever knitted?
A square. I knit a lot of squares, actually. My first knitting teacher knew a bunch of things to make out of squares, so we could practice the basics and not have it be a big deal if we screwed up. One square turned into a very simple doll. One square turned into my needle book. Another one got sewn up and stuffed and turned into a toy rabbit. I knit a lot of squares.
Was there somebody who encouraged you in your early knitting learning?  Who, and what did they do?
I hung out with a bunch of other people who were also just learning to knit. We did have a teacher, but a lot of the encouragement we got was just from seeing each other try new things. When you get knitters together, there’s a whole lot of “wow, I want to do what you’re doing!” I still hang out with knitters a lot; it’s fun to see what everyone else is working on, and to get new ideas or help with a new technique. It’s fun to show off my own knitting, too.
Do you ever make a mistake in knitting?  What do you do then?
I make LOTS of mistakes. I make mistakes all the time. Less than I used to, I suppose…at least I usually don’t make mistakes with the basic stitches. Now I make really big, spectacular mistakes.
What do I do? I whimper. I complain to anyone around me who will put up with it. (This works best with other knitters.) A lot of times I can figure out what went wrong and fix it, by looking at my stitches really carefully, counting or checking the pattern or going back to the last place I knew it was right. Sometimes I can fix the problem by isolating just that one stitch or place where it’s wonky, dropping down to the bad spot, making it right, and chaining the stitch back up. Sometimes it’s too big for that and I have to rip out several rows to go back to the problem and start over from there. Knitters have words for that sort of thing: if you just have to go back a few stitches, it’s called tinking. If you have to take the needle out and rip it way back, that’s frogging. It happens to everybody.
Sometimes the problem is so big, or so frustrating, that the piece has to go into time out for a while until it can learn to behave. I have a sweater in time out right now (my Must Have Cardi, sadly enough) because one sleeve is bigger than the other. By a lot. I can’t stand to look at it so it’s in the basket until it is truly and deeply apologetic for what it has done.
What is your favorite thing that you have ever knitted?  Why?
This is a tough one. I have a lot of favorites. I love my lace silk Lily shawl because it is so beautiful it makes my heart stop, and because I knit it with a group of friends. I love the sweater I knit for Tom because it was so hard to do, and because he wears it. I love the vest I knit for Mook, because she wore it alot and took it home to Thailand with her and I know it makes her think of me. I love the brooklyntweed scarf I knit because it was so easy and the yarn is so wonderful to work with. I love the slippers and socks I’ve knit for my girls, because they call them Mamasocks and my work keeps their feet warm.
Did you make a conscious decision to be a master knitter or did it just happen along the way?
Are you kidding? That sort of thing doesn’t “just happen.” I decided. I paid a lot of money to it. I had to join a particular guild. I ordered materials and I had to follow some very precise instruction. I had to make a very deliberate decision, and then recommit to it over and over again. There were a million small steps along the way, and I had to choose to do each one of them. I had to really want it, because I could have knit a lot of other things instead with the time it took to do that program.
Do you ever get discouraged with the way a knitted piece is turning out? 
Oh yes. I cut a whole section out of my Fair Isle hat because it looked horrible, and it didn’t look good with the rest of the design. The hat had to go into time out for a while too before I could decide what to do with it.
What’s the best lesson you have learned while knitting (not about the actual knitting but more like patience, calm, sticking to a task)?
Everything anyone ever knit, is made from one stitch at a time. Every single thing…one stitch at a time. Even the biggest, most intricate sweater can be knit by just working one row, then another row, when you have a chance. You don’t have to have a huge chunk of hours to sit and make progress on something. You can knit something big just by carrying it around with you and working on it for five minutes while you’re waiting in the car, or ten minutes while dinner is cooking, or while you’re hanging out with friends, or watching TV in the evenings. You can do huge things with small bits of time, and it makes those small bits of time important because they’re part of making something happen.
Have you ever given something you’ve knitted as a gift?  How did that feel?
It feels great, especially if the person you’re giving it to really wears the thing. And especialy if they’re knitters. One time I gave a pair of mittens to a friend. It was a terribly difficult pattern, actually it had started out as a hat pattern and I used the design to make up a pair of mittens. I’d spent hours with graph paper and colored pencils working out the colors, and then many more hours actually knitting them. It was an advanced technique for me at the time and it was a huge stretch. When I gave them to my friend, she said, Oh, Thanks, and she put them with all her other mittens. Since then, she’s learned to knit herself, and she came back to me and said OH, WOW, THANKS for the mittens! So sometimes you have to let go of your desire to be thanked and appreciated, and just know that you did your best and you’ve given from your heart.
It’s a real work of love to knit something for someone. When I’m knitting something as a gift, I think about that person with every stitch and every row. It really is giving your heart, and then afterwards you know that your love and your hours and your work is walking around them keeping them warm. It’s very personal.
Do you think that you still have more to learn about knitting?  What would that be?
There’s always more to learn. That’s one of the great things about knitting…you never run out of new challenges, new techniques, something surprising. I have a long list of things I want to knit. There’s a new book on Estonian lace that’s coming out next month, and I can’t wait to get my hands on it because I know there will be a lot of things in there that I’ve never done before.
If you were to teach someone else to knit, what is the thing that you’d really want them to understand?
I do teach, and one of the things I really try to teach knitters is to understand what’s happening with their stitches. How do the stitches connect? Why does one technique give a different result than another?  Every stitch is connected with every other stitch. If you really look at your knitting closely, especially when you make a mistake and you have to undo it, you can get an understanding of how they connect, and then you can figure out how to fix things. Or how to make it do something different. You don’t have to be a slave to the pattern instructions…once you get some understanding of what’s happening, you can make your knitting do what YOU want it to. It’s not that difficult once you see the connections.
The other thing I would really say is, don’t get discouraged by the mistakes. You can’t NOT make mistakes…everyone does it. But if you let your early mistakes get to you, you’ll never learn to knit. You can read as many books as you want about knitting, you can collect patterns, you can stash yarn, you can draw up designs of what you want to knit, but if you don’t PUT STITCHES ON YOUR NEEDLES, you’ll never get anything knit. If you do put stitches on your needles, you’ll make mistakes…but look at what went wrong, see how it happened and what you might be able to do to fix it, and learn from it. Get help from a more experienced knitter, or just someone with fresh eyes. Most things can be fixed, and probably more easily than you fear. The only people I’ve known who “can’t” learn to knit, are the ones who expected to do it perfectly the first time, and then when they made a mistake like everyone else, got discouraged and gave up. The knitters who go ahead and knit, and make the mistakes and fix them…those are the ones who can go on to create something beautiful.

…no one has shuffled around the house in your slippers.
the strawberry yogurt in the fridge has gone untouched.
there has been less laundry to do.
I haven’t had to drive anyone to Ploy’s house.
When I go past Best Buy/Marshall’s/Borders, no one starts thinking hopeful thoughts. (Except maybe me.)
the third bedroom door has been open. The bed is made…and the room is far too clean.
no phone calls requiring dialing twenty digits have been made.
I made way too much popcorn for the movie.
I had to sit at my old place at the table.
your sisters have been wearing your shirts.
no one shows up at my side with a crochet hook and a hopeful smile just when I’m starting to think about dinner.
no one has left the pull-for-shower button up, or stuffed the bathmat through the handrail.

it’s just not the same around here since monday.